i met w T. we talked about sex. former T and before former T. it was ok to talk about. ive never really talked to him abt that before. its so hard for me to talk about sex. i wasnt that uncomfortable though. he asked a lot of questions and i answered them. i want to be able to process the sexual trauma and stuff. i think it was good we talked about it. i feel more confident now in my ability to talk about those things.

we had a team meeting with my coach and a nutritionist before our session. i am going to try to do a tyrosine depletion diet as well as stay away from gluten and dairy. its gonna take a lot of self discipline but i am willing to try this. the goal is to start lowering my meds including the shot. i want so bad to not be on the shot and if this stuff might work then it is worth it to try.

i felt anxious after i left T bc we were talking about sex stuff. but i came home and took a bath and now i feel better.