I am 21 years old. At 19, I started university abroad (European Law in Maastricht University, Netherlands). However, I dropped out the very first year because of 2 reasons - the subject and the exams were too much and hard for me and because I experienced...student life (partying, drinking, etc). I wasted a very large amount of money from my parents and they never learned about the second reason for my failure... Now, 2 and a half years later, I have moved in the UK and want to study and set up a new future with my girlfriend (who studies here as well). I am starting uni in September and will study Marketing. However, the failure in the Netherlands and the feel of guilt towards my parents left a huge trauma in my head. Ever since, I haven't been able to concentrate properly on studying and whatever I read, I forget shortly afterwards.

The stakes are too high this time, but I don't want to stay uneducated for the rest of my life. If I fail this time, I am going to owe the UK a student loan of around 27 000 pounds (Bachelors is 3 years x 9 000 pounds). This failure will probably make me bound to stay in the UK for the rest of my life since I slowly will have to re-pay my debt. The more time passes and uni comes, the more I fear about failing again...

Can you recommend me something (besides consulting a psychologist) and possibly give me an advice? You don't know how much I would appreciate this... My girlfriend always tells me to believe in myself and that I will make it this time, but I don't believe in myself... Thank you for reading my story.