Wow! You have such deep offenses. Your heart needs emotional healing. You lost respect for your husband and thats the worst that can happen to a wife. Try a marriage retreat, if he is willing. Don't give up on 10 years of relationship. Work on you and how you arrived at how you feel because if you don't see that and you dissolve this marriage you will take the pattern into a new one with all your same problems plus another man's issues. Remember how you once loved this man and recall where it soured and work from there. Love isn't a feeling, it's an act of our wills and feelings will follow when we tackle the real foxes that are out to destroy our marraiges. Fight girl fight!!!!