Actually, I do have a particular girl in mind. There is this girl I see at the gym and I really wish I could go talk to her, but I am too scared to because of the age factor. I don't know how old she is exactly, but I am pretty sure she is younger than 21. I saw her at the gym tonight and I just had to walk away again. I am so sick of living like this. All my life I've been deprived of my chance to connect with the girls I like, and society is bent on making sure it stays like this forever. It is already difficult enough for me since I am socially awkward and I'm thinking I'm probably somewhere on the autism spectrum, but society just NEEDS to be making things even harder on me with fascist rules which pretty much close all the doors for me.