Well I have known it for a long time now, but seems I'm not the only one in this house who is depressed. My mom, who is sick with lung & liver cancer, & disabled by scoliosis, keeps waking up later and later. She woke up at 12:30 this afternoon and said to me: "I stayed in bed so late today on purpose because I'm so depressed." I knew her staying in bed so late was not just her physical sickness. Now I know I can't go to her with my problems because it will only make hers worse. Now only people I can talk to are the people here on PC. I feel alone. & I don't want to be told "You aren't alone!" because that really will not help me in my current state of mind.

On other hand, now I feel a great exhausting desire to take after her and stay in bed late each day myself. I am depressed also. Plus I see no point in getting up earlier if I'll just have to wait on her anyway. (I have to wait on her to get up and use the bathroom before I can even have my shower.)

Have spent the whole morning on the internet and listening to music. I feel like I am just existing here.