It seems that at least a part of you wants to be protected from abusing Benzo's as you have started this thread. I would suggest you toss the pills in the bin (if you have already filled the script) before things get out of hand again. Destroy the script too. Are you supposed to be on any other meds at the moment? What meds are you not complient with? It is so important that you work with your clinicians by being honest and setting up a treatment plan you both agree with. It worries me that you lied to your doctor to get benzo's. It could be a fast downhill slide for you so please take care.

As for diagnoses they are really only useful to help find the correct treatment. I have had the same three diagnoses myself until the PTSD was treated to being manageable(I still have symptoms but not overwhelming anymore). At this point the BPD literally disappeared leaving me with Bipolar 1 and PTSD. I totally get you being curious. I have been the same with my diagnoses to the point of researching the pants off them all. Educating yourself about whatever symptoms and diagnoses you have is a wise thing. Just don't overdo it as it can mess with your mind...well it certainly did for me.