Well who'd funk that simple statement would have such an effect. I've struggled and struggled with this sentence from T last week just before the break and its leading me to really learn that others have needs, that there isn't just me in this world, and that as hard as I try to find a way to not trust T because of this parting statement, I can't.

It seems part of me very comfortable in not trusting. I dont have to be a real part of the relationship. I can hide behind my wall. But I keep battling T in my head and the just accepting T at her word, would it appear be the easier option for me, but it hasn't.

I've really done some emotional sumersaults trying to find a balance between who we both are, its been hard, but theres a sort of calmness now settling down.

Less panic, the fantasy that a T that cared would never have needs of her own, is going, and feels strangly safer to see someone else taking care of themselvs too.

I deeper level of belief in them because if they are being geniune with their own feelings, then they will be geniune to mine too.

Its good really