Actually, really really REALLY REALLY REALLY deep down, I don't agree with myself. I'm human and have the same needs as all other humans. But dismissive avoid ants are also self-abusive bullies. Better to be mean to myself and disavow any feelings of that nature, rather than admit to weakness. Any non dismissive feelings simply do not exist. (even though they do) So even the inner turmoil is sucked down under the surface, where it festers with no outlet. So we can have mood mental health issues even when "nothing is wrong" and we're totally "happy" with life. Go figure.