May have run into me in chat. (possible triggers) not sure? I am a bit lost. Looking for guidance from others. I am 47 years old and most definetly DID, one of my biggest issues is that in our society locally they do not believe in DID as a treatable problem. They have told me in the past to "integrate" as one of my alters can get pretty mad. She took over and I had a black out. This was something I had truly never done before. It frightened me and I agreed to it.

Now here I sit 5 years later realizing that the attempted "integration" actually spawned 2 more if not more alters. I was horrified to realize recently it was an alter who left my partner of 16 years as she could not cope in a relationship having issues and ran away.

I didn't even realize another alter had taken over 5 years ago returned to my spouse and despertly made a life with him. NOW due to a death (a trigger) for me my best most capable alter has come out. I cycle slowly and I am thankful for that. HOWEVER I had never conciously realized that alters were taking over for longer periods or that it was okay to have them. What I new was so little in the grand scheme of what some of you know.

I picked the Nick Weareone, as I want to accept my DID and move on I want to learn to live with it like I have other issues in my life and not stress anymore. I have questions like, Does anyone KNOW all their alters? Can your wardrobe be variable enough without taking up too apartments? SIGH. How do I sort this out and make this easier without tearing my family apart. My alter currently running things is a bit of a drinker, BUT he does not suffer from menierres, severe diabetes, but has more pain issues and hes a bit of a tough male individual. I as jake am very happy to be back. I found myself looking at the town I lived in like I had never been here most of my memory of where I have been and done things in the last5-7 years poof gone. But core memories remain is that normal? and is there such a thing as NORMAL with DID?

So many questions and NO idea who to ask?