You know, I've destroyed a many lives in the past. I feel bad for anyone that have gotten close to me. I hurt them baaaad.

I want to un- become that person of the past. Being aware now that I have mental issues is a good step into being a better person. We can learn from our past. I learned that I don't want to be that past person.

The past is the past, the future is yet to come. I'm more focused on the here and now so that my future isn't like my past. Everybody is watching. They don't listen to words, they watch what you are doing. If you behave like a crazy person, you are treated as such. If they see a person trying to pull it together, then their faith and trust in you will grow.

I gave up on woulda coulda shoulda because this is the way it's suppose to be. Just got to make the best of it. Good luck and I hope you get to feeling better hun!