that's actually one of the things I am trying to work through in therapy. Intellectually, I understand I don't have that power, but the little 5 year old in me who always got blamed for everything and always had to take the blame for everything is super worried. Sadly, that's mostly the part that reacts to therapy...

LicketySplit, I'm not sure if this is a pattern with her because I have only been seeing her for about 7 or 8 weeks (started in the beginning of Jan). Yesterday was the first time it came up, though she has been implying that therapy is very triggering.

I'm still hoping that is was just stress from her personal life making dealing with my crap that much more difficult. At least I see her on Tuesday and can hopefully address this.

There were a few times I questioned if she had pigeon-holed me into a diagnosis, but she denied having made such sweeping judgements. I let it go at the time because I know my own state of mind and fears play a lot into how I see people. She was warm and empathetic most of the time, but when i was more cautious around her, I perceived her as more judgemental. Maybe that was the case with yesterday also...

Does anyone have any tips for being able to "reality check" in the moment to avoid all this agonizing? There are times I can come back and ask at a later date, but it would help SO MUCH to be able to do it in the moment.