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Old Feb 28, 2015, 06:09 PM
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Originally Posted by BlueInanna View Post
It really isn't fair . I wish I knew how to lift you out of it. I know logically that it passes but it seems impossible when I'm in it. And there's not even time for depression makes it even more unfair. So frustrating!

And I've had friends think I should just be able to control my moods & emotions & thoughts. It felt so inconsiderate and demeaning. One gf just won't hear it or believe it. And she's a school teacher telling me that the school t told her one of her students was depressed. This gf just wouldn't believe it's a real thing. I tried so hard to get thru to her. Now I don't bother even trying to have a friendship with her. It's so hard for me to find rl friends so I'm glad we have here at PC.

I really hope it will get better for you as soon as possible. Does sound like maybe ur coming down from a high. Wish there was an equation for like if we were hypo/manic for some amount of days then the depression would be some known length. Hang in there❤️
There is no time for it! I had **** to do today! I was going to go to a couple stores and return stuff I'd ordered last week. I think there's still time, it just requires that much more effort to do it. It should be so simple but I have to work myself up to it and push myself that much harder. I feel pathetic.

I just don't get the idea that one can control their feelings and moods. I don't believe it at all. I think it's something people say to you when your moods/feelings are an inconvenience to them or others. "Think of how your behavior when you feel this way affects other people." Well, if feelings are so easily controllable, they should be able to control their own feelings and reactions about it, right?

I hear ya with that gf. My boyfriend doesn't believe that anxiety is real. I really don't know how. I've tried to explain that it's actually physically measurable, that there are physical symptoms of it, but he's "not sure it's a real thing." I think it's because he doesn't ever really experience it. So luckily for me, that's actually a good thing -- I need someone more grounded than me. He believes in the other stuff -- depression, etc. -- just not that. I think it's because his mother has GAD, but his mother can also be very manipulative, so I'm sure she ruined his perspective on it by using it to manipulate. Idk.

Thank you so much. I also wish there was some equation. I've been trying to find a pattern this year, but I'm not doing very well at it. I keep forgetting to log my moods daily. So there are gaps.

It's also hard for me because I don't even really know if I get hypo/mania. I still have no real official DX, although from my appt the other day I may be coming closer to one. I just don't know how to identify if I'm in a certain state because I'm unsure. A lot of the time, though, I think I find myself winding up in a mixed state. I just don't know.

Thank you.
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"Every person, on the foundation of his or her own sufferings and joys, builds for all." ~Albert Camus

Cymbalta, 60mg -- for the depression.
Latuda, 40mg -- for the paranoia (delusional type).
Adderall, 40mg XR & 5 mg reg -- for the ADD.
Xanax, .5 mg as needed -- for the anxiety.
Topamax, 50mg -- still figuring this one out.

MDD, but possibly have some form of Bipolar Disorder. Then again, I could be paranoid . . .

Well, at least I still have my sense of humor.
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