Feeling very lonely these days.. Kids just went to bed, h is sick and hiding in the bedroom.

I am very aware that I really don't have anybody IRL to talk to and be real to.. like share EVERYTHING with. I have struck up a friendship with another mom from school, but I can't tell her that I am thinking about divorcing my husband and finding a woman to be in a relationship with. I do talk to my BFF, but she lives 1600 miles away, and T.. well he is T. He is there for me an hour a week usually( he felt distant, unsupportive, and argumentative yesterday).