Dalila,

I wish I knew what to say. Just, I wish you were not so hard on yourself. None of it was your fault. Scratching like that could happen to any of us too. It's ok to have setbacks - this road is not a straight one - it has many curves and twistbacks. I hope that your therapist was able to help. You know, if it wasn't ok for you to call her when you need to, she wouldn't have let you have her number and/or allowed your calls to go through. She must feel that you are worth it.