I think it would be nice to be able to attend a DBSA meeting or two and maybe even start meeting some friends or something, but I get really anxious at the thought of attending anything with people I've never met before. I'm afraid I'd completely freak out and embarrass myself or just turn around once I pulled into the parking lot. I've been told that it can actually make your anxiety worse to continuously give in to it. Logic, therefore, dictates that I should avoid giving into the anxiety by not putting myself into situations that make me anxious. Okay, probably not the best solution, but it sounded good.

I'm not sure about the suicide prevention meetings because I'm not actively suicidal. I don't feel like I'm going to act on the suicide end of things, because I really don't feel depressed. I just don't think an accidental death would be the worst thing that could happen and the 'what if' thoughts are just kinda there every once in a while.