I hope you do come back to check. I'd hate to think that I read all that and replied for no reason.

Alot of what you say is stuff I suffer with, too. Except I'm a single woman, with no financial stability. I do have a car that I love, though it's not a classic and definitely not a 'Vette. I tend to give in alot. Don't want to be a bother. Don't stand up for myself.

Also am intrigued by the Burning Man Festival. Know that, in reality, it's unlikely that I'll ever go. Too clumsy for a motorcycle.

You sound so sad. I know you said that marriage counseling hasn't helped. Are you in therapy for yourself? I hope so. A therapist can help you sort through these feelings and maybe help you make changes or learn to cope with your decisions.

I hope you find peace.