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Originally Posted by travelbug2015
I had my first bout of severe depression in college. Before my depression I had a passion for writing. My college professor had tried to persuade me to pursue a PhD. He felt that my writing skills would be an asset in my chosen field. But the depression hit. It has been almost 16 years since that depression crippled my ability to write. I have yet to regain my interest in writing. I'm always correcting my grammar. I'm terrified of letting people read my writing. My writing left a lot to be desired. Has anyone felt like this after a bout of depression? It was one skill that I treasured.
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I've had / am having a similar experience. I used to be a really strong writer and, more importantly, I loved to write - it came easy to me and I felt like it was what I was meant to do in life. Then I entered a Phd program and some combination of that pressure mixed with constant ups and downs has completely depleted my confidence and turned writing into something I usually dread.
(somewhat ironically) I am able to write the way I used when I write about personal experiences related to bipolar - not in terms of narrative/autobiography, but in a more creative/poetic/allegorical sense...like writing about racing thoughts, confusion, even depression.
Maybe you could try to 'open' that part of yourself back up in a similar way?