I drew my depression and showed my T the picture of a dark shadowy figure with horns and torn wings. I feel that my depression is not anything in specific, I get it in the middle of the day or in the middle of family. I compare myself to those who i believe are normal. I continue to wonder if I am supposed to be here. I never thought that I would get this bad and you may have it worse than me but I know that when I get depressed I begin listening to music which promotes the depression and that doesn't help. To me depression is an entity that lives inside and when I get tire or weak it comes out to try to keep me down. I have been seeing my T for a couple of sessions and I have many things going on but she is trying to identify some triggers for these feelings. I hope this is what you wanted to know. I hope you find what you need to heal and overcome this troublesome nightmare that can sometimes leave us paralyzed. Be well!!