My crying has seemed to reduce just to night time. The rest of the day is just an achy feeling, a yearning. I think about my T all the time, but my logic is starting to override the emotions more and more making the days more manageable.

But I need some suggestions. My memory sucks, and I'm nervous. I'm seeing the county clinician/T tomorrow and need help trying to figure out what I need from her. I'm going to assume that the DBT T will be my new long-term T. But as someone suggested, I should utilize both Ts while I can. So I need to figure out what topics are the best to cover with each T. I am 100% unsure of an individual DBT T operates. I'll clearly list my questions:

1. Will a DBT T help me process my termination?
2. (Random question) How do DBT Ts feel about attachment?
3. What should I address with county T?
....Termination with ex-T (that's depressing to write )?
....How to connect with new T?
....????

And btw, I can't tell the Ts about each other. I hate lying. I suck at it. But neither will see me if they know about the other. I may not see the county T for the full 6 weeks, but I do want to use that resource if I need it.

And just as an example of how bad I am at lying... On the way to the hospital last night, my fiance was trying to help me develop a story on how I got the cut. He said to say I slipped in the shower, and cut myself when the glass door broke. And what happens? Doctor comes in, asks what happened. She gives me a list to choose from: accident in the kitchen, shaving, gardening... Nope, I blurt out I did it myself. I think they might have been tryi g to sort out if my fiance abused me, but who in their right mind blames themself as a lie? lol

But anyways, the point is that I really don't lie, but I want to in this case. So I have to be careful about what I say or what is talked about.

So any suggestions that you all might have will be greatly appreciated.