Normally, I like it when people show concern. It shows me they care on some level. But today my primary told me she's not worried about me, that I'm strong, and will be fine. At first, it kind of hurt me. But for some reason, I actually like that she's not concerned...about any of my issues. I'm so used to being pushed to do more, be better, etc. And my primary, she accepts me exactly where I'm at and believes in me that when I'm ready to make changes I will.

But yeah, I know I'm not doing what I'm supposed to be doing health wise. Got my blood drawn, and dread the results. But I did ask to be referred to a diabetic nutritionist, so that will help. She checked my cut and said it's healing and not infected. I told her I don't want it to heal. She laughed and said it's going to heal no matter what I do/don't do to it. She has a point. My weight...ugh. I've gained back pretty much all the weight I lost last year. Frustrating, but not a surprise. But I'm alive and healthy enough to not need any type of intervention so... And she's not worried about me! Lol

Back to bed I go. Way too early to begin the day

Oh, forgot to add: my Pdoc is coming back from maternity leave in 2 months. Funny how I was so worried about losing a connection to her while she was gone. I'm so excited to see her again. Losing my T put my relationship with my Pdoc into perspective. I'd rather have her in my life and deal with feeling comfortable again than not have her at all. Hopefully she's not mad about me about my T. I'm worried she will think I'm too severe because my T left. Though, on the other hand, I don't think my Pdoc was too happy with the type of therapy my T was providing. I guess I'll find out in 2 month.