(((AnyoneHere2Hear)))
Yeah intrusive thoughts are really not nice at all and fighting these thoughts in your head can be a very difficult, emotionally challenging situation at the best of times yet alone when we are already chucked so far to the ground and having to deal with them.
I did find this interesting article if you want to have a quick look - its on help.org - dealing with these types of thoughts - I hate these thoughts - I get them too
Suicide Help: Dealing with Suicidal Thoughts and Feelings