No i've never had a problem with accepting it. I mean thats all I can really do is accept it. It just seems like, after that honeymoon phase is over, reality starts to set in and the problems start to surface. Problems like having to meet her family... Her mother is my grandmothers age and her siblings are my parents ages. I kind of feel like I dont fit in because of that and im worried that she might be embarrassed.

Then theres the fact that she has to meet and associate with MY family. My mother is her age which is VERY awkward lol. I dont want her to feel uncomfortable. My family is pretty accepting of people but I know that it must be just a TAD bit uncomfortable for her.

Then theres the fact that she is more established in life than I am. I dated a 42 woman who had her own house, a 7 year old daughter from her previous marriage to another woman, a set career, and way more money than me. I love all of those qualities but I do not know the first thing about raising a child, I dont make nearly as much as her, and im still in college. I feel like a lost puppy following her around. That makes me feel so bad about myself because I want to be able to buy her nice things and just do stuff for her but I cant so it's embarrassing.

Also, her friends tend to all be in their late 30's and older. I feel like they don't take me seriously. Because when they ask my age, and i tell them, they sometimes laugh or look at the person im dating like she's crazy. I hate that crap. My friends are all around my age and I know she doesnt want to hangout with a bunch of 20 somethings.

Then theres the sex. I love the new experiences that usually come with a more experienced woman but its like they have NO patients at all. I mean, I would like to get comfortable with somebody before I do this CRAZY sexual **** that they want to do lol. I just end up feeling uncomfortable and I cant relax when I feel pressured to do certain things. I guess I might just be choosing the wrong women. I dont know. And when ive said that I didnt wanna do something before, they've either gotten annoyed or broke off the "relationship" not long after. Just hurtful and depressing. But thats the only complaint with the whole sex thing, otherwise, everything is PERFECT.

So these problems always seem to surface when things start to settle. That's why I want to understand why I keep putting myself through the pain of them eventually leaving because of these things.

Besides all that, everything is so great and I am really happy. We laugh, connect, have fun, and get along. Its like, im winning for a while, but then everything goes to ****.