I have gotten worse with SIing. Thankfully my T can't legally tell my mom about it, but I still feel like I can't put my whole trust in her anymore, just because she brought up the idea of telling my mom.

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When I SI, I just tell myself to fight the pain. The more pain I can fight physically, the stronger I am emotionally. Because of this, my cuts have gotten deeper but are not dangerous... yet. The biggest problem I have is that I don't want to stop. Why should I? I have tried other coping skills but nothing can beat this feeling.

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I am worried about myself, but as always, I pull through... just to do it again.