I am getting so sick of fighting my urges! I hate trying to talk myself out of taking my pills or cutting or anything! I just want to be with my mom and I can't! No one will let me and I can't let me. I'm so torn! I already cut, but that's not the point. I'm sick and tired of being sick and tired!

I'm thinking about admitting myself into the hospital soon. It's the only thing that's gonna save me. I was just in a couple months ago, but I haven't been this suicidal and this depressed since I was 13 (I'm now 26). Should I do it? I don't want to worry anyone, but I see no way out right now.