This is more for myself to work through some thoughts so forgive any rambling pls....and background info for clarity - I am a single mother who works full time and taking classes for my job. I am recently divorced (we are still friends and he co-parents). I have been in a long distance relationship for many months.

I am taking a long hard look at myself and not liking what I see. The blame I have placed on others, I think, would be better suited for myself. I have always made excuses, some valid, for lacking the ability to make an effort with significant others and my half hearted attempts have gotten me nowhere which then causes me to blame the other person when my efforts fail.

I do have ADD, which I think maybe more severe than I realize and it poses many challenges in relationships for me and whomever I am with. I leads me to be very forgetful and ultimately neglecting my partners needs and wants unintentionally. This is very hard for people who dont have it to understand and why should they have to? They deserve to have their wants and needs be a priority to but how do I make this happen? How do I stop making it about me and my challenges? How do I overcome all the challenges I face, with MI piled on top, and make a real effort? There never seems to be enough time for everyone who needs it, including myself.

My current BF is amazingly supportive and this is the healthiest relationship I have ever been in. The communication is better than I have ever experienced....but yet I am falling short. For personal reasons I wont go into details but I am scared of losing something that could be the best thing I ever had.