T, So I don't want to tell you this but I will so this is my practice run...

When you answered your phone in our session on Thursday it threw me. I'm not upset that you answered it, because when you do it is always extremely quick. What bothered me was when you said, "I'll see you tonight." See, I like to pretend that you have no life really. I don't mind the idea of you spending time with your kids, but if it is a girlfriend... I am extremely bothered. I like to pretend to you and myself that I am not sexually attracted to you but I suppose I am if the idea of you having a girlfriend bothers me.

I don't think that keeping this a secret or pretending it's not a feeling that is bothering me is going to help me. I think that you would agree that recognizing it and talking about it is the only way for me to get past it. Honestly though, I'd really prefer that you lie to me and tell me that there is no girlfriend even if there is one. The fact that you keep your life very private might make this conversation difficult for you though.

I might suggest that I tell you how it made me feel and allow you to take your time to respond at a later date. I dunno. I just know that I do want to get over you so that we can have a more healthy relationship. I'd like you to be able to visit me at work again someday. I'd like to be able to hug you again without it throwing me into a tail-spin.

I don't know when I will bring this up but I know I will... Eventually.