Hello Zygara,

You have a huge amount of insight into what is happening here. Yes indeed, attachments are very important in childhood and losing your Mother at that age would have a massive impact on you. Did you have any counseling at the time or since then? I am sorry for your loss. Complicated grief can come from losing a parent so young. Please share your feelings with your doctor and ask for a referral to see a therapist, therapy would really help.