i have always struggled with love and connections because of my mental healht issues. i am working on building relationships and trust with people now. i consider my coworkers my family as they are with me a majority of the time and we are a real team. just the other night i was texting with one and said she could have something of mine she liked. she was thrilled and this came through in her texts. she was telling me how much she appreciated me and how blessed she felt to have me in her life. she is just the cutest purest sweetest person and i am thinking about this as i am reading her texts and i actually felt this feeling swelling in my heart and an overwhelming sense of admiration and caring for her and just thought that i really love having her in my life. i dont know that i have felt that before. i hope that helps.