Hi Perna,
The like and love thing is quite interesting and I had never seen it that way. We also have 3 brothers and I can say I like all of them. But I need to think more about this. It's a great point. I probably want to say I like all of them because I would feel guilty otherwise lol
As you mentioned it is a process to move into our own life and it makes it even harder that I have spent so long not doing so. I'm not a teenager anymore I'm 30. But I'm the middle child and life was just never about me, I don't blame my parents for this... there was just always some other kid, mostly my sister going through something and requiring attention. And I’ve never allowed myself to move forward. I've never been someone’s priority, and now with my fiance I have his full attention, he wants to do everything for me and I do love and like him a lot. And my main issue, I believe is I do not want to disappoint him, and I'm so hard on myself and that upsets him because he feels he can't say things without me getting upset. And he told me I’ve only been doing this recently, and the only thing I can think of is that she’s back in my life and having issues.