The way you talk about her, you sound like someone who's in love.

You say you don't know if she's the one, but in the same breath you contradict that statement by stating you want to, and can see yourself spending the rest of your life with her....


So unless you're desperate and scared of being alone (which u dint get from your post) seems like on some level you do know that she's the one for you.


My take?


Your feelings for her are being muted under the weight of your depression, they're clearly there, by what you've written, but seems that the depression just doesn't allow you to fully experience them...


What do you do?


Well I can't tell you what to do, but if it were me, I'd get help for the depression and once that ball is rolling, well only then would I re-evaluate my relationship.