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Originally Posted by Trippin2.0
The way you talk about her, you sound like someone who's in love.
You say you don't know if she's the one, but in the same breath you contradict that statement by stating you want to, and can see yourself spending the rest of your life with her....
So unless you're desperate and scared of being alone (which u dint get from your post) seems like on some level you do know that she's the one for you.
My take?
Your feelings for her are being muted under the weight of your depression, they're clearly there, by what you've written, but seems that the depression just doesn't allow you to fully experience them...
What do you do?
Well I can't tell you what to do, but if it were me, I'd get help for the depression and once that ball is rolling, well only then would I re-evaluate my relationship.
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Thank you for your take on things, Ive never used any type of forum before but i have to say In just one day alone I have learnt alot on here.
I think your right in treating the symptoms of depression first and I found an interesting article on here: 15-common-defense-mechanisms (cant post link as Im new)
I suppose Ive never thought about it up until now but i think what i was afraid where sociapathic tendancies is actually a form of self Defense, the toning down of emotion i talked about i think is a form of Dissociation, especially when she is away I think I disengage from daily life in order to pass the time on and where ive not been well physically and not working it makes me feel better about things but as i spend so much time in this state I get depressed about time passing by so quickly and I dont know what im doing with my life, the negative thoughts are giving me doubts about the relationship. Having a word for it and realizing when im doing it is a step in the right direction I guess, does anyone have advice on how to deal with this? Im afraid of seeing a psychiatrist and taking medications because i feel like they can exacerbate things after experience with my mum who suffers depression and was later diagnosed with bipolar disorder and has been sectioned a number of times, I feel like my mum is more herself when shes not taking medication albeit a bit more erratic.
sorry to change the subject of this post but i think your right in treating the depression first. I Know shes right for me and maybe feeling better about myself will change these doubts im having.