Yes, I share those feelings. It is very hard to know what to do. I used to think that what I was feeling was me. Now, I know it's a chemical storm raging within my mind, by body and my soul. I haven't gotten to the point where that knowledge has changed anything though. The wind is still the wind, the rain is still the rain, the storm is still the storm. It rages on. I guess we just try to hold on.

My heart is with you and I hope you feel better. I think CANC's breathing exercises are a good idea. Good luck.