After working in the same industry for over 20 years, in three different companies, I was fired/retired when new technology came in. I tried to learned it but in the same timeframe had a major MVA, back fusion surgery, months of physical therapy and recovery time. I was told I "didn't learn it fast enough". This is the first time I've been out of work for thirty years.

Now I'm afraid to look for work because I'm afraid of being a failure again. I'm even afraid to look for a job. I've applied for SSDI twice and been rejected. We've gone through all our CD's and are now into our Savings.

I'm so scared and tired of being scared and tired.