I can relate to this even if Iīm not at the moment in therapy. The last T I saw for evaluation, I saw her four times more or less crushed me with her comments on the things you mention here.
Just after two sessions she told me (noone have ever told me that before) she recommended me to do a psychiatric evaluation because she had suspicions about Aspberger! Out of the blue although she also knew about me being terminated and such. And that was just because she didnīt think I was enough open and that I didnīt show enough feelings when talking about my problems.
So for me I wasnīt even given the chance to get to know her a little bit more. I really look forward to the day when Iīm given the proof that I donīt have any neuropsychiatric diagnosis. I went into such an evaluation just to be sure even if Iīve never thought about me having such a diagnosis.
As you say, sometimes I smile or I donīt show that much emotions even if Iīm sad and if a T canīt understand or see why that is I just see another incompetent T in front of me. By that I donīt mean you should change T.
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Originally Posted by ScarletPimpernel
1. How do you be more open?
* Is it talking about sensitive things? Or allowing your T to push/challenge you? I'm honest, so I know it's not that.
2. How do you lead therapy?
* My T told me it's my therapy and I need to lead (pick topics).
3. How do you convey emotions when you have the ability to smile even when you're sad?
* I can't read my T's expressions and she can't read mine  When I told her today I didn't know what to talk about, she thought I was playing around with her...
Please don't tell me to get a new T. I have enough I'm dealing with and I'm tryi g to figure this relationship out. As a recap, my ex-T abandoned me 16 weeks ago, so I'm pretty fragile and vulnerable. I also can't figure out whether I actually have issues with my new T or if those problem are a side effect of T abandoning me.
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