Hello and welcome to Psych Central nogej!!! It's nice to meet you. You have joined a community of warm and caring members who will want to offer you support and advice. Yours is welcome as well.

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I'm sorry for your struggles. If I saw a couple having sex only meters away from me I would be sexually aroused too!!!!! It's only natural. It doesn't matter if your gay, straight or otherwise. It's sexually stimulating. Not something that would be easy to get out of your head either. I don't think you have a disorder at all. The thought of the two of them having sex stimulated you. I totally get it. I also think many children experiment with sex at an early age with the same or opposite sex. It depends on what you were exposed to at that time. You say you were viewing pornography. You were exposed to sex. You just happened to be with a male friend at the time. You may have to practice capturing your thoughts when you feel them coming on. This may help and you'll find that those memories will slowly fade away. You'll find we have a safe and supportive community. I'm glad you've joined us.

I look forward to seeing you around!!!