Now I feel like maybe I am turning into a lesbian and accepting the thoughts because it isn't causing me as much distress as before but this whole thing has made me question my identity altogether. I can't even look at my past pleasantly anymore, I really thought I knew who I was as a person and this is just making me question everything
If I try and really imagine if I want to be with a woman the idea does not bring comfort as it would if I truly imagine to want to be with a man. Then I get a thought that men are quite unemotional sometimes and I won't find an 'emotional' guy, so I may as well settle with a woman?
This is all just making me want to self-harm..