Bill, I know you're right, but it's so hard to be around people where I have to pretend I'm okay. I took myself to the chemist to pick up my meds - so that's one outing today. I was meant to be seeing a film tonight, but I canceled. I have the baby again on Friday and I have an appointment tomorrow with my MH nurse. I might open up to him about my hopelessness. I've booked in to see my psychologist next Tuesday and I'm seeing my t Monday. The nights are going to be hard, but at least I have a lot of appointments this week. I think I need the extra support. I just don't see it helping