A couple of sessions ago, my T told me that I dissociate in therapy. I knew that I get really spacey, and zone out, but T said I also say things which I don't remember afterwards, which is scary.

Last session, we talked a bit about that, and about other stuff too. But as the session went on I just felt more and more dizzy and spacey. I just couldn't talk really. I couldn't make the words. I told T how I was feeling. She asked if I feel this way a lot, but mostly we had big silences. She asked how I felt in the silences, and I said 'like I am sinking'.

But still, I didn't/couldn't speak much, and T just didn't say anything. Usually she helps me out. She said at the end that it's interesting for me to reflect on what came up for me with all the silence.

I'll tell you what came up, - I don't want to go back to therapy! I feel really ****ed off with T, I feel like a grumpy brat. I'm sure this is all helpful but I was trying to think about it right now and my brain just swung out of focus. It's doing it now. I'm cross and also annoyed that I wasted a whole session sitting there like a lemon!

Anyone else have their T leave them in a fog/silence? Or had anything useful come from a session like this?
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