I don't know if the ex is right for you or not. I do think, though, based on what you have told us, that the current boyfriend is not right for you. He doesn't treat you at all properly and he does not have goals similar to/aligned with to yours. And of course you fear telling him the truth about many things, given the way he reacts.

Leave your boyfriend and allow your own true self, and your parents, to nurse you back to health.

My perspective is that if you lose both of them...so be it. I expect that in time you will find someone to love and cherish, and who loves and cherishes you. In the meantime, I know that you can heal, care for, and develop yourself.

(((((Indie'sOK)))))