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Originally Posted by Ion1280
I'm wondering if what I'm experiencing is dissociation? The last couple therapy sessions have been really intense and have involved bringing up a lot of painful childhood things. During the sessions I have been really upset(sobbing, not really focusing or able to focus or concentrate or follow a conversation very well.) After the session once I have time to calm down and regroup myself I try to review the session, but it really can't remember it. I can recall the beginning and end of the sessions where we are talking about non difficult stuff but the part where I was very upset are pretty blank. This has also happened in the past when I've been super depressed, I would just space out while having conversations and then after while I'd realize I had no idea what I was just talking about.
I'm just wondering if people can help me understand what's going on, cause I kind of feel like I'm losing it.
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Im sorry but we cant tell you whether you dissociated or not, only your treatment providers can tell you that.
what I can tell you is that if this was me and my therapist and in my location, no it would not be dissociation. here in my location (new york) dissociation is feeling numb, spaced out, disconnected (in other words not crying, not feeling any emotions,...)
an example of dissociating during a therapy session would be things like when talking about hard, triggering things spacing off, numbing and talking as is the triggering thing doesnt really affect a person..many survivors of abuse can sit there during their sessions and talk about the abuses they went through as if they were discussing what they ate for dinner last night or a good book they just got done reading. they have dissociated their self from the event. then after the session having no memory of discussing something triggering because during the discussion the person was numbed, spaced out/foggy minded /not feeling what was being talked about.
sometimes therapy has what my treatment provider and location calls a ....side effect....for me where it takes time for my brain to calm down and process (think about, remember what was discussed, plan of action around what was discussed..) just because so many things are involved.
the brain is an amazing thing. for some people it reacts like this where it gives you little bits of information at a time, other times it floods a person.
my suggestion is talk with your treatment provider. they can tell you whether or not for you this was dissociation and can adjust your sessions, come up with a treatment plan that takes into consideration any side effects you may have from treatment so that what ever this is for you doesnt happen to you again.