I couldn't agree more with wishing that I didn't need people. I don't trust anybody but myself because I've been hurt and betrayed by far too many people in my life. I often wish I could be an emotionless robot or mutant that is completely incapable of emotion and didn't need anybody and is immune to loneliness even if it means that I couldn't love anymore; being without love is a small price to pay to not have to deal with people to get our needs met I think.

Even the worst psychopathic serial killers need people to love and accept them which sucks.

Just hang in there man. You're not alone in this way of thinking. PM me if you wish to talk