That's the kicker, eh? We've ALL 'been this way forever'. Heh. We just didn't always know it.... that's why DID works as a coping mech. Dunno why but that kinda dawned on me sometime lately, too.... I think because my mom asked something that indicated I only 'became DID' when I got the dx. When really, that's what's been functioning all along. Since I was 3. (Develops" around 3-5, sometimes as late as 7 years old"). At 10 I knew SOMETHING. I understood something was up. I didn't have a name for it, but I did recognize that I was on the verge of "crazy" - that was my word, as close as I could get. And that I needed to stay on 'this side of crazy".