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Originally Posted by ruh roh
I'm so sorry. It reminds me of a therapist I had who was in over her head. Like you, I did not want to leave her. Can you afford to see another therapist (or more than one) to consult with? Having a therapist who knows what she's doing makes a world of difference. It's unbelievable, really, especially if you've been in the wrong hands for a long time. But you don't know until you find one and can see for yourself.
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Thanks for all the replies.
I think my problems are less with my T and more with myself. Meaning, she is a good, compassionate listener. We've done several different techniques, e.g., EMDR. I have a dependency on her that is becoming a cause of problems rather than a solution. The dependency is almost certainly a part of transference, but the shame and pain of this has become debilitating. I also think that the depth of my past was not clear to either of us for a very long time, and it has gradually been pulled out into the open. Of course that's the point of the therapy, but too much, too fast, you know what I mean?
Yes, I'm going to a consultation, and so is my T, independently. This brings a whole new set of fears for me, that are focused on an external factor(s) mandating the end of this relationship. To be honest, I realize that I might well be better off somewhere else, but for me, I have the depth of personal connection; the pain of loss and abandonment that would go along with this would be very much re-living my past.
Thanks again for all the replies. It helps a lot knowing that so many of you understand and can empathize.