But I'm literally that, I'm not just pitying myself and It's not just because of my depression. Even in the first grades I had trouble with school, where I was happier. I'm really clumsy with my body and can't use it at all. Using my hands is the worst, second is using my body. I also have a pretty scary/annoying face and really bad posture.

I don't want to fit in, I want someone to fit in with me. My post is that I can't fit in, not that I want to "fit in", but that I can't be like other people. I want people like me to fit in with. Feelings aren't the only thing which connect people.

I don't like being around people because I explained it a hundred times, plus they don't want to be around me anyway. Even if I acted friendly and social, but kept my thoughts and ideologies, they would bully me or ignore me, because I just don't like the same things they do, don't follow the same things they do, etc.. can't relate to them.