hi Teacup381

I am sorry that you are not feeling good. What you are experiencing is anhedonia, which is a form of emotional numbness that people experience in depression. Can you get really good medication from the Dr. to help? Perhaps contacting your member of Parliament to advocate for you would get you into a psychiatric program soon.

Are you in therapy? That can really give you the skills to manage depression. You are not condemned to a life of unending misery because when you get good help from medication and therapy recovery as possible. Try to keep your mind busy doing things, especially enjoyable ones to take the focus away from feeling bad. I hope and pray you feel much better soon. Take care. God bless and best wishes from your friend Francis