I can't feel anymore

I have no emotion anymore.

I feel the same indifference towards everything / everyone. The doctor told me I cannot get into a psychiatric program covered by the government for several more months. I've been waiting almost a year to get help. I've just gotten worse and worse. I feel no affection towards my husband. I love him, but I just don't feel anything anymore. It must be hard for him. I'm worried he's going to leave me.

I have a lot of pressure to do well in school. It's kind of hard to get 90s when I couldn't care less about anything. I'm starting to give up hope that things will get better. the light at the end of the tunnel is growing dimmer.

Am I doomed to a life of neverending misery?

I am so sorry that you are having to wait such a long time to get into the psychiatric program. Are there any local support groups you could contact? I had to wait for a long time to access the help I needed, I understand how you must be feeling and although I can tell you that sooner or later something willl change for you, I know that those words mean very little to you right now.

PC helped get me through the long wait for treatment, knowing that I had a safe place to vent and whinge.

OMG I have been where you are. There is always hope. You can get through this - please keep talking to us here. Is this something that has been building over time? Can you take a time out somewhere for yourself like taking a walk. I suffered with feeling nothing after my father died when I was young. As that feeling started to pass I felt angry at everything. Are you grieving or trying to grieve over the loss of someone or something?
I am so sorry you are feeling this way. Please hang in there and know you are not alone. I care because I've walked in your shoes and here I am I am still here and there are many sunny days ahead. Doesn't matter what time of day, please talk to us. I am confident many people have similar feelings and can support my words that you can get through this. Not over night, it will take time. Allow yourself to feel not right. It is okay not to feel 100% all the time.
Here is a gentle hug to you. Please keep talking to us.

hi Teacup381

I am sorry that you are not feeling good. What you are experiencing is anhedonia, which is a form of emotional numbness that people experience in depression. Can you get really good medication from the Dr. to help? Perhaps contacting your member of Parliament to advocate for you would get you into a psychiatric program soon.

Are you in therapy? That can really give you the skills to manage depression. You are not condemned to a life of unending misery because when you get good help from medication and therapy recovery as possible. Try to keep your mind busy doing things, especially enjoyable ones to take the focus away from feeling bad. I hope and pray you feel much better soon. Take care. God bless and best wishes from your friend Francis

No way!

- vital

ive been trying to get help since november of last year. i was denied a program recently since i had a psychiatric evaluation in the last year. i still cant feel anything. worried that its gong to cost me my job since i work in customer service. i am very lost right now. doctor hasnt been helping me much. i take 30mg escitalopram every day.

thank you everyone for your kind messages. i am trying to cope the best i can until i can try to get into program again in december.

hi Teacup

If your doctor is not being very helpful. perhaps you would like to consider getting another one who would be. I do understand about having to be nice to customers. But you could fake it. if you have to. It will not be long till December when you can get into the program. So please God you will be able to hang in there till then. I hope and pray everything gets much better for you soon. God bless and best wishes from your friend Francis

hello francis,

thank you. i have been faking it but its very hard. hopefully i get accepted into program right away. i hope there is not a longer waiting period to get in past december.

Does it have to be a program? Can't you see a therapist on your own?

i havent been able to find one thats accepting new patients. i cant really afford to pay for one so ive been trying to find one covered by the provincial health care.

I have been feeling the exact way.. I don't know if you're feeling any emotions at all. But I feel completely numb. I can't even smile, I feel like I don't feel guilt, regret, I used to be sensitive to every little thing someone said to me, but now I could care less. I don't feel anything, not sadness, madness, happiness.. Am I normal?