I have written about some of this before so sorry for the repititation. I was diagnosed with ptsd and gad as a result of my past life. I work hard to keep my kids getting what they need and have been exhausted for a long time. Last month they also added depression and changed my meds.
I have had a ton of anxiety and am very insecure about the few friends I have. I have a friend, we have a lot of the same past problems, we tried dating but he started to struggle and we put things on hold. Last week I asked for help, just wanted to talk and have some tea but he blew me off and was a little mean about it when I tried to explain. I am trying hard not to isolate myself and just thought I could depend on someone, I was wrong. I am still hurt and feel pretty abandoned and have walked away.
There is another friend that always takes and when I was really low it started again and I said so, we had words and I am afraid to even say anything now.
Now I am alone, I feel so guilty, scared. There seems to be no hope and if I didn't have my kids I wouldnt even try. Why can I never find a friend, why am I always alone.