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Old Oct 15, 2015, 07:07 AM
nomdeplume83 nomdeplume83 is offline
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I'm sure many of you can relate to this. How do you handle boredom? I feel so lost in life. The last time I felt I had any sense of direction was at the end of high school and life went downhill from there. I got married young, chose a career that I knew wouldn't make me happy, and here I am, in my early 30s, wondering why I chose the path I did because I'm bored out of my mind and I don't know what else to do. At any given moment, I find that I don't know what I want for any aspect of my life - my career, my relationship, my hobbies. And what's worse is I have nothing to complain about. There are people living in slums who have real, existential problems who are just surviving. I have a well paying job, a house, dogs, a husband who loves me despite my depression. Why can't I just be happy? Other than running, I have nothing else to occupy my free time and honestly can't think of what else I would enjoy doing. My job is boring and I can't imagine spending the next 20-30 years of my working life sitting in a cube crunching numbers. I know that the job is a means to an end but if I have nothing in my life that makes me happy to wake up for, it becomes very difficult to just go through the motions. I wish I had the option to take my own life but I know I would leave my husband devastated so I don't follow through with it. I don't want my depression to destroy someone else's life. Any advise would be appreciated.
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Alone & confused, Fuzzybear, vital