Why can't they make a drug that would keep me at hypo?! Stability for me is nothing more than a lesser form of depression. Or boredom, mediocrity, indifference. It's simply the absence of mania or severe depression. I hate it! I'm not motivated to do anything, I'm just here, able to go through the motions with no real passion or joy to it.
Now that my buzz-kill meds have brought me back down to earth, I feel unenthused about l life again! I want to stay in my "happy place"! I've spent WAYYYY to much time in the darkness and it is draining the very life out of me!