I HATE "stable" !!

Why can't they make a drug that would keep me at hypo?! Stability for me is nothing more than a lesser form of depression. Or boredom, mediocrity, indifference. It's simply the absence of mania or severe depression. I hate it! I'm not motivated to do anything, I'm just here, able to go through the motions with no real passion or joy to it.
Now that my buzz-kill meds have brought me back down to earth, I feel unenthused about l life again! I want to stay in my "happy place"! I've spent WAYYYY to much time in the darkness and it is draining the very life out of me!

It would be amazing if they could make such a drug. It kinda sounds to me like you're still experiencing depression. That happened to me-- I came out of depression but not fully... and I felt just like you are describing. It took a couple of med tweaks but I finally got back to true stability, and I"m grateful. I love hypomania but for me it always comes at the cost of crushing depression.

You could be right! I'm not even sure really if I've ever been truly stable. Like I said, if it's not mania or major depression, it just seems like a lesser form of it. I'm either high, low, or somewhere in between but I don't think it's really defined as "stable" for me.

I agree with mountainbard. It sounds like depression from what you are stating. I was stable for just over a year, until recently, and that's not how stability was for me. I was at peace, well close to it, happy, motivated, enjoying life, etc. Maybe the buzzkill meds aren't truly working?

I hear ya! I'm a blank page. Not happy, not sad, blank. Thank you meds?

Maybe. But if it is, I went from flying high to a crash landing pretty damn quick afte taking my meds. Either way it really sucks!

I want a new drug! One that keeps me hypo.

Me too!!

Lol, me 2!

But when I want a pick me up, I'll bump up my Prozac a wee bit. 8 hours later all is good.

Mania is a series of symptoms that can cause marked impairment in functioning or cause harm to self or others. I’m just brain storming here but sometimes an inflated self-esteem can reach delusional proportions, a decreased need for sleep can alter brain functions, to be more talkative than usual can screw up your social life, a subjective experience that thoughts are racing can reach psychotic proportions, distractibility and psychomotor agitation does not help, and a excessive involvement in activities with high potential for painful consequences can make a person severely dysfunctional. All of these are symptoms of mania or a person non stabilized.

I went though a great deal of that list of things for four days and then went all the way down within an hour or so of taking meds. I'm not sure I even know what real stability feels like.

Not hypo, but flying slightly before hypo mania
If there was a drug to do that I would finally feel like I am supposed to belong to this earth

I thought I did. I've been what I consider stable for the better part of a year, and then my pdoc tells me I'm only in partial remission. So what does REAL stability look like, and how the hell do I get there?

I think too may pdocs prefer to medicate bipolars into a little depression to keep them out of any kind of mania. I put up with it for years and then started demanding better. It's taken six months of tweaking, but I now feel much better. It's not hypomania or mania, but I am functional again and I can accept this.

Tell your pdoc how you feel. Keep journals and mood charts. These will help convince the pdoc you're being compliant and know what you're talking about.

I've always wondered about this too, what does stability truly feel like? As it stands, even on meds and staying out of the hospital and all that good stuff... I'm just about perpetually hypomanic... I hardly ever have baseline.

Also, as for hypomania, I can see why that would be appealing to people that are more on the depressive pole of bipolar... but it's overrated, just saying from someone who lives on the manic side of the pole most of the time. It's always a balancing act for me to not tip into full blown psychotic mania or a mixed episode and this is with me taking all of my meds exactly as prescribed and doing all the other right things that are good for stability.